When confronted with the question; What are you afraid of? My answer is probably failure. I’m not scared of the boogie man, spiders or snakes…it’s failure that scares the crap out of me. But I don’t let it stop me. This year has been a testament to me confronting my fears, I started writing on Medium, a platform that encourages people to say what is on their minds, without fear of rejection. The kindness and support I’ve received while writing on this platform has encouraged me, and I now have almost as many followers as my humble little blog here.
I started a 365 Day Project here on Kimmy’s Patio and have gained more than just a following, I believe I’ve made friends from all over the world, and become part of a loving, caring community here as well. I appreciate everyone who reads my blog, and I hope to come up with some new and fresh ideas for the new year. But I’m scared. Scared of starting something new, scared that it won’t work, scared my readers will tire of me. I guess all who blog go through this, fear of rejection, fear of angering people with my words, fear of not getting my facts straight-all normal feelings, I’m sure.
I put up a writer’s website, it’s awful and I don’t know what to do to fix it. I want business, but I’m scared I won’t be good enough. Maybe that’s why I haven’t asked for help to get it right. It’s that fear, fear of failure that keeps me from tackling the hard stuff. So…that being said, I’m going to ask you guys to check it out for me and see if I can’t move past that fear and get it right so I can grow and have a better year next year. I had help setting it up, it’s on WordPress but, it’s on .org which is harder to design than WordPress.com. To me anyway. If you would be so kind, I’ll provide a link to my site and if you can check it out and see what is working and what’s not. I welcome all feedback and suggestions. It is simply kimsmyth.org and it has samples of my writing…blog posts, articles and essays I’ve written over the past year or so. For some reason, I’m not reaching anyone with it, not gaining any traction. It really just serves as kind of a portfolio, yet I was hoping to attract clients to write for-paying clients. Obviously, I don’t know what I’m doing, so I moved on to what I do know, and started writing and submitting my work anywhere that would accept me.
I became a real published author, even if the publications are small. That’s my reward for conquering my fear of failure. That, and meeting all of you and my friends on Medium. Next year, my goal is to get past my fear and really try to make a living through my writing. What if something tragic happened and I needed to support myself? I will use that thought to propel me forward, and I hope y’all will help me achieve my goals. Wow…I never intended the answer to the question to be this long!
What are your fears? What can I do to help YOU? Let me know, and I’ll do my best. Maybe we can help each other have the best year ever next year! Stay warm, it’s bone chilling cold here today…have a warm cuppa joe and write me back. Can’t wait to hear from ya!